A triangle wasn't good enough?

In addition to the very confusing post I made previously, I had actually forgotten to include yet another man who kept popping in and out of my life. I met Tim years and years ago, while my family was on our way to see my gram. Mother's day was that very weekend, and I remember him handing out Werther's caramel candies.

Tim has on and off again done the 43 Kennedy route, but has been elsewhere too. I should probably mention now that he is a bus driver. After a scheduling period of being on the Lawrence route, he reappeared on Kennedy, and we connected again.

This man was whom I thought I'd ever end up in a relationship with outside of the church. We got along so well, and are mutually attracted to each other, and not just on the physical level. We have much in common, while having even more that are different, in a complimentary way.

Even though I know he's living with his girlfriend, I must admit, I'm still attracted to him. I've kinda yoyo'd on the staying away part, especially since he's seriously involved with someone. During that time I was also hoping that Howie would eventually come around.

Not that it's an excuse or anything, but around New Year's, I've basically given up on Howie, and I even told Tim that it wasn't a bright idea to continue with whatever it is that we were in. It was pretty difficult during last year, since Tim's my "in" with the TTC, and Jon is a major bus fan, and got interested in the idea of working for a public trasportation company, maybe Viva or something.

If it were possible to be involved with Tim, maybe in January I might have hooked up with him. Then again, maybe not. I still never saw the relationship with Dan coming. At least the communication with Tim has been pretty lacking-- he transfered to another division in another part of the city, a lot closer to home actually. He told me so some while ago. I hadn't gotten in touch with him after that, and since Jon and I hadn't done any bus fanning trips this year, it'll be even longer before the three of us get together on some bus route.